I woke up feeling good. Refreshed. Ready for a new day. I turned on the tv to watch some news (why??? I have no idea). The stories were real downers. The first about the 14 year old girl who was shot in the head by the Taliban for advocating girls education. Thankfully she is being well cared for now and on the road to full recovery but still...what an awful thing to happen to someone. Especially to one so young.
The next story was about the 10 year old girl who was abducted on her way to school and then found dead a week later. Again...so beyond awful! I felt sick and wondered what is this world I am living in? It is an ugly place full of ugly and horrible things.
I went on with my day which got so much better after hearing baby #2's heartbeat. I am always in awe over the whole baby growing process. It is kind of creepy knowing that there is a tiny human inside my stomach but its also the most amazing thing in the world. I am so grateful for this blessing that I am able to take part in.
Well, just when I thinking that life was too good to me my mother texts me that my newly married brother's car was stolen today. Ugh...I again immediately felt sick to my stomach! My brother and his wife are such good people and they do not deserve this.
After I heard the news I couldn't help but sink to my knees beside my bed and just sob. I think at this point I became overwhelmed with it all. As I finally began to pray and ask for more faith, understanding and maybe some comfort over these feelings of disgust for this world I am bringing children into, I felt...peaceful. Just like that, one minute I was feeling distraught and then the next so peaceful.
My Kenny came in and wiped my tears and said "shhh, up up, Elmo?". HAHAHA! I of course couldn't help but laugh. It hit me then, he is here to make the ugly things fade by the beauty he brings. I am pregnant again because I know this little baby will also bring beauty into this world and help overshadow the ugly. I cannot make the bad things go away but I can, as a mother, help bring good things...or good children into the world. I am so grateful that I have God in my life. I am grateful for the simple power of prayer. You guys...
I know I said this blog wasn't for politics or religion but guess what...I am so grateful that I am LDS. Why? Simply because of the peace I get from the teachings of the gospel and because of the person it has made me. Which is...good. I hope you all will find the beauty of this world. Sometimes its hard to see. Sometimes its staring at us right in the face telling us "shh. up up!".
With that, I would love if you could say a little prayer for my brother and his wife. I can't imaging what they are going through right now. Things are always so tight financially when you're newly married and this is quite the trial to experience right off the bat.
Thank you all for your amazing support and sweet and encouraging comments on my previous posts! You guys are seriously so awesome and I wish I could tell you just how much it makes my day to see a nice words posted on my blog!
Now go find the things that make your life, your world -beautiful. I think I will step outside and feel a little crisp air and look at the fall leaves on the mountains. HA, I feel so silly for thinking there might not be very much beauty in the world. Because there totally is! Its all around me!