I'm serious! I can't behave like a child when I'm suppose to be a parent. Here is how I came to this conclusion of why I haven't grown up yet...ready? It's very embarrassing.
So the plan was to meet my mother at the temple at 10:30 this morning. I woke up at 8:30 and started to get ready. I ate some cinnamon toast right away hoping my morning sickness would be just a temporary thing. I took a nice and long, relaxing shower hoping that would help as well.
My tummy was upset but I was very determined to go. I got dressed and got my stuff all ready. I took a few sips of water and just as I was about to leave I realized I was throwing up in my mouth. I barely made it to the bathroom sink. I threw up all my toast and all my water. I knew I wouldn't make it to the temple so I had Mick call my mother.
I could here him telling her I wasn't going to make it due to being sick. I threw up again then started crying. I was SOOOOOOOOOOO frustrated and so disappointed.
That is when I became childish (note: "childish" is a lot different the being "child-like").
I threw a tantrum. Yes. A tantrum.
I kicked the bathroom cupboard 3 times. Stomped my foot. Hit the sink. And I was about to literally scream out loud when Mick knocked on the door and came in. I realized how ridiculous I was being and just cried into his shoulder. I felt so helpless and was so sad. Its so frustrating to me sometimes. Not only do I hate throwing up more than anything but I wanted so badly to go spend a morning with my mother in the temple.
Mick was wonderful and did his best to comfort me. I have a great husband. :) We watched The Office until his meeting. It helped to take my mind off of my upset tummy. I calmed down and am realizing it really isn't the end of the world. I'm going to have a baby. Sickness is just part of the deal.
Why am I blogging about my embarrassing tantrum. Hahahahaha! Because I can laugh about it now! Lol. I hope you get a little laugh from my childish behavior today. hehe. I feel a little better this evening. I had some life cereal for dinner. I'm hoping it stays down! I'm also hoping that this random act of tantrum-ing was because of my raging hormones due to being preggers.
PLEASE tell me it was. ;) LOL
OH Jessica, I seriously needed a laugh today!! I still feel like some punk kid put in charge of raising the next generation of adults....like who thought it would be a good idea? (I know the Lord did!:) I am still sooo childish and selfish at times...I think it's just human and one of the things to learn!
ReplyDeletePS...I stomped my foot like a big baby last week...not prego...just female...Loves to you babe!
Yes you are such a sweetheart! I'm sure it was very disappointing not being able to go to the temple with your mom. Just keep in mind the sickness won't last. Plus you will be a great mother yourself since you've had a great example to learn from. Here's to another day. Hope you feel better!
ReplyDeleteHAHAHAH Oh gosh, you are so not alone. I think tantrums are part of life, you gotta have one every once in a while to get stuff out of your system! I am 25 and still don't feel "grown up" ever!! Um, my baby is starting Kindergarten in 2 weeks and I am still getting used to the fact that I am even a mother!
ReplyDeleteI know right now you may be wondering if it's even worth all the puking and nausea but trust me IT IS!! I went to hell and back just to bring my beautiful boys into this world and I am willing to do it all over again as soon as I can! A few months of puking and feeling like death is NOTHING compared to the joy a child brings to your life, trust me!! I am so glad you are laughing because that is the secret of life! Enjoy every moment, even the sucky ones!! Love you!!!